Lack of a voice and information

I haven't had my normal voice for 3 days now. It is horrible - it hurts and I sound horrible. Not fun for someone who enjoys talking. I also have a lack of information. We were supposed to find out if I'd be induced today. Unfortunately, the midwife didn't e-mail the doctor until yesterday and hasn't heard back yet. So that leaves us where we have been - waiting and in the middle of the unknown. Quite frustrating - but we've just decided we can only wait - Bryson will come when he is ready to come and that is that.

Induction Thoughts

I want to be induced. It would be so nice to just KNOW that OK - he is not coming any later than this date. It would help me mentally and maybe even physically. It would help me fully prepare at work and let me tell my parents when to plan on being up here for the birth of their grandson. But my midwife will not induce for convenience. She says the baby knows when he's ready to come out and I need to think like a mother. This statement bothers me. I believe I am thinking like a mother with the planning I am trying to accomplish. I am not asking to be induced at 35 or 36 or 37 weeks. All I want is to know - OK - I've been pregnant for 40 weeks - on March 3rd if Bry Bry isn't here, we will induce you. But no - that doesn't look like it's going to happen. The best I could get is that if he's not here by March 10th (one week past my due date) that they will induce then for medical reasons.

I am just so frustrated. What does it mean to "think like a mother". I am officially a mother - and this is how I am thinking - so don't you think that is "thinking like a mother"???? Perhaps I'm just over this pregnancy thing - I'm ready for Bryson to join the family - I'm ready to have my son.